Here I was thinking that maybe I was wrong about the intentions of someone. Second guessing myself & heading back to a land of uncertainty.
I can’t even lie. I was wooed by smooth words & the promises of forever. My niavity got the best of me. I’m woman enough to own up to that. I have a tendency of loving the wrong ones & these last two have made me see that there’s something wrong with me. Something in me that attracts the same type of guy. And as of now, I’m working on breaking that cycle. I deserve so much that more what I’ve gotten over the years.
I’m thankful for the experiences though because without them I wouldn’t be growing the way I am now. I wouldn’t have realized my strength. It really showed me the value of self love.
Here were these men who said they cared for me. Not even love but care. Anyway they claimed to care but in the same breath asking me to compromise what I stood for. My purpose & my celibacy. Two things that mean alot to me. That’s not something I’m willing to give up. They both claim to be hurt by it but it is what it is. So if putting my needs before theirs is selfish then so be it.